Being a new life

I was married for 15 years and we also dated for 2 years before we were married. On Oct 14 2011 Jason moved out to decided what he wanted. Three weeks later I found out he had a girlfriend, It had been going on for at least a year and a half. He moved in with her and her parents. My life has for ever changed and I have three great kids that think they did something wrong and have no idae what to do. I am still trying to figure out what I did wrong. I have so many people tell me I did nothing wrong, then why did he have to go and find a girl friend not just walk away.

So this blog has turned into away for me to be able to talk freely about how I am feeling and what is going with me. I posted on facebook and made Jaso's mom mad because now some of the people she works wtih know what is going on and she was not ready to explain what had happened. WHY IN THE HELLL DOSE IT HAVE BE KEEPED QUIT?????? His family has no idea how many times I went to bed naked or next to naked to get him to have sex with me. HE WOULD NOT TOUCH ME; Tell me how I am going to get over that?

 I just want to say if you don't want to help me out because I express myself on facebook or some where else, I can live with it because Jason has been doing that to me for the last 15 years. Every time he got mad at me or upset about something that is how he handled it. BY WITH HODLING LOVE and not talking to me for days on end.
I know I am not perfected and I have alot I have done wrong in my life. I turly tried to make my marrage work and I was willing to try anything, but I could not do it by my self he need to also. I will be jumping all around on things so I hope you can follow my thoughts.

Well it has been a long time but, I have decided that I needed to write here more often. Well we are all doing well we are just waiting for the summer to come. We love being out side and can't wait to put up the pools.
Jason is doing well and has really enjoyed snowmobiling this year, he decided to put it away for the year he draw out on his big bull elk tag. He has a turkey hunt in March. I really hope we can get the garden in sooner this year then last year.
I am doing well I have a new calling I am activity day leader for the 8 year old girls it is so much fun. My mom also has the same calling and same ago group, way fun trading ideas. I am still scrap booking when I can fit in. I have start a group and we get together once a month.
Jordan is still loving 1st grade and has a bunch of friends. She is growing like a weed. I can not believe that she is turning eight at the end of the year. Jordan really loves being the big sister and telling Seth what to do, but he is very strong willed and dose not go along as much now. She really loves Trennis and they get along really well, she loves to hold him and come to me and ask him if he wants mom or big sister and he stays with her.
Seth is doing great in preschool and loves to go and all of his friends. He really loves his play weapons and trying to shot the animals on the hunting shows dad watches. He loves playing with Trennis and loves to roll on the floor and play. He really miss Jordan when she is at school, then she comes home and sometimes I think he wants her to go back to school. Seth is always happy and playing.
Trennis is doing well and growing way to fast, he crawls every wear and is pulling himself up and walking along things. He will be running around any time now. He really loves to see us all he gates mad when dad leaves now to. He always is trying to keep up with Jordan and Seth, he dose a good job. He loves pulling stuff off the book shelf and trying to help me when I am doing things on the computer, and pulling all the paper out of the printer.
Well we all are doing well and we hope all of our friends and family are also.

Hello to all our family and friends,

We hope all is well with every one. Jason is doing well at work and is having a hard time with no snow. But, it will be hear soon enough. I am doing well also I am able to stay home with the kids and I also do some work for Albert's company. I am also the activitie chairman in our ward I amd going crazy trying to get everything ready for that.
Jordan turned 7 on Thanksgiving and had a great birthday, seh is in 1st grade and love's it. She loves hunting with her dad and Jordan I have together when Dad and Seth go out hunting. she can't wait until Christmas.
Seth is 4 and is loving going to preschool he has a small class and gets to go with one of his best friends Camdon. Seth also loves hunting with his dad and wants to know when he can go ice fishing with his dad. But he thinks we should have someone watch Trennis for us when we go. Mom thinks I should just stay home with the baby..
Trennis is 6 months and is so much fun. He is so happy and plays well. I really Loves hi bother and sister who will not leave him alone for a mintue. He rolls all over and will be crawling before we know it.